I Cried For 24 Hours

"But I never knew the shame of it; The shame of loving alone"

I Cried For 24 Hours Lyrics

Spoken Opening

I cried for twenty-four hours

When the truth walked through the door

I thought someone else had hurt me

But I had hurt me more

Verse 1

I never knew I dreamed so long

Of a love I had not seen

It started as a childhood hope

Somewhere in the little girl in me

After all the movie endings

I held on to someday

He would meet me, he would love me

And choose me all the way

Pre-Chorus

It would be him and me and God

Me and him and God

We would face the storms together

And build what I never had

He’d love me like my mother couldn’t

Show up like my father never did

Give me roots and give me shelter

And a family I could live in

Chorus

But I never knew the shame of it

The shame of loving alone

The shame of giving my whole heart

To a heart that was not home

It’s not that he was cruel to me

It’s not that he did wrong

He just did not love me

And I had loved too long

Verse 2

I thought he’d see my heart one day

And know what I would give

I thought if God had purposed it

Then surely love would live

But every day he stayed in my mind

In my purse and in my prayers

Written deep inside my journal

Like a name that was not there

He had my whole heart with him

But his heart was not with me

And I had to face the mirror

Of what I chose to believe

Chorus

Oh, I never knew the shame of it

The shame of loving alone

The shame of giving my whole heart

To a heart that was not home

It’s not that he was cruel to me

It’s not that he did wrong

He just did not love me

And I had loved too long

Bridge

Shame is still a feeling

And shame can tell the truth

It showed me where I left myself

While reaching out for you

Shame, I won’t throw you away

You came with lessons too

You showed me I was loving someone

While forgetting I need love too

No one owes me forever

No one owes their heart to me

And if I am not the one he loves

Then let him love where he is free

Everyone deserves the kind of love

I carried in my hands

Even the one I loved so deeply

Deserves the love God planned

Verse 3

Wisdom does not always come

Wrapped in pretty things

Sometimes it comes through crying

Through failure, shame, and grief

So I will value the journey

Not just celebrate the win

All the stories, all the tears

All the truth that brought me in

Because the deepest shame was knowing

It was not about what he did

It was how I left myself behind

For a dream with no evidence

Final Chorus

So before I choose again

I must come home to me

Before I give my whole heart out

I must know what I need

I still believe in partnership

A shared life, love, and dreams

But love should not erase me

To prove what loving means

Spoken Closing

Now I hope I’m wiser

I won’t chase what isn’t mine

For only God, who starts the story

Can bring two hearts in time

Outro

I still believe in love

I still believe in dreams

I still believe in family

And all God has for me

But before I choose another

Before purpose meets destiny

I’ll choose the heart God gave me first

And learn to love me clean